So, I've been doing a lot of thinking and talking with my current boyfriend. (His name is Ian, by the way). He's a personal trainer and I feel like after I am done with this little "bump" in my road, I want a health and lifestyle change.
My plans-
As soon as I am able to:
-begin workout regimen.
-Eat healthy for gains and losses. (Muscle gain, weight/fat loss)
-Start looking into cosplay modeling and body building.
6 months post baby:
-This is the point at which I would really love to start getting into cosplay and see if I can win some competitions and find an agent.
-Start cosplay blog.
-Start cosplay fan page.
-Begin bikini model training.
Now, before we get to the next marker, I want to let you know what Bikini Modeling is. It is not slutty or trashy. It is the first level of the body building competitive industry. You are judged based on your muscle tone and proportion. And yes, you do have to be beautiful. But, I want to try it out and see if I can get anywhere and if I like it.
1-1.5 years:
-Compete in my first Bikini Competition.
-Discover the hard truth about how my body looks and what I can improve on.
-Possibly enter another competition.
-Start training to become a fitness model.
-Consult with a body building coach in order to learn posing, positioning, and to discuss and plan a fitness routine.
3-3.5 years:
-Become a fitness model.
- Fitness modeling is the next stage in body building. It involves a modeling walk, posing, and then a fitness routine of some sort... Basically cheerleading, but in a MUCH smaller uniform! haha
For those of you that don't know me, I was a cheerleader for MANY years. It is my one true love and favorite pastime.
Go big or go home, right?
I have all of the contacts I will need to complete this new phase in my life. I'm just hoping that I like it and I will do well at it.
You may see me sharing MANY new blogs about fitness modeling and my favorite cosplay blogs :) :) :)
Stay tuned! T-12 weeks until Sir Isaac Tater Tot arrives and is with a very loving family! Then BOOM, new Angie <3
And that's all I have to say today <3
Saturday, May 24, 2014
Sunday, February 23, 2014
I've always thought I knew what love was...
So, I can't remember if I've told you all, but I'm not getting married anymore.
Please don't be sad or feel any type of feelings toward the situation, it is for the best for my ex-fiance and I. We were just too different for our own good.
However, that happened months ago and now I am dating someone new... Oh, and did I tell you I'm pregnant? Yeah, I can't put the two together either...
His name is Ethan*. I actually met him on the Tinder app, (after telling myself I would never use a dating app or website!) and it's almost like he's too good to be true!
Let's start from the beginning-
I was feeling lonely and ready to move on when I joined Tinder. I was pregnant. I was overwhelmed by a sense of self pity. I know. Ridiculous. You don't have to tell me twice! And it just seemed like every guy I was compatible with was only looking for things I don't want to say... ok, I'll say it. They all wanted sex. Clearly I'm not embarrassed by sex or anything, but I don't go to a dating app to find it. Especially when I'm pregnant. So what I was doing is just telling guys flat out- I'm three months pregnant. And most of them were scared away. Others were creepy and had fetishes. Then Ethan appeared....... He didn't want sex. He didn't care I was pregnant. He just wanted to get to know me...
That was really new and exciting! I haven't dated in almost four years! I was excited and then overcome with this fear... What if he is just really good at playing cool? I have major trust issues with men and how was I just going to let this guy in and not put up every single wall I could muster up?
Well, we went to coffee and his eyes gleamed every time he laughed and his smile got wider and brighter with every fumbly thing he said. I could tell he was just as nervous as me! That made me relax a LOT. We actually had our second date that night! It was so sweet. But I had no idea how to act and to be honest, he wasn't my type. He was very muscular, shorter (but taller than me), light haired, fair skinned............... Ok, I know I was being picky. But I'm a girl and its what we do. Every time he looked at me I could feel this warmth. I felt pretty. I really felt wonderful. All I did was smile. But stupid Angie with all of her walls kept being skeptical. Maybe it was all a front?
But I saw him again... and again... and again... until I was sure that all of the compliments (which I have no idea how to take) and all of the wonderful things he says were true.
And now I'm at this line. You see, I categorize relationships with men in this ladder type form where there are lines you cross. Ethan never was in the friend zone, so we skipped that line. Then we went to the dating zone, and then the steady zone... and now I feel like I'm at this new zone. I always thought I knew what love was... but now I'm not sure.
I'm scared. And I'm worried that I'll be rejected. Every time I see him I feel like I can do anything. He challenges me and questions my decisions and my opinions. Things I need, but I never told him I wanted. How does he get me when I haven't even told him about myself? We're so much alike yet so completely different. And I think that's what makes me want to make him happier than he makes me. He is genuine and cares about my feelings and what is going on in my life.
Don't get me wrong, he's got his ways of making me crazy, but I'm sure I do the same for him :)
I just want to know what this is that I'm feeling. He's made me feel a way that I've never felt before. That's sad considering I was engaged... but back to the happy! How do I know!?
Now all we need to do is figure out how we're going to tell his mom I'm pregnant... and it's not even his...! But that's for another blog!
Feel free to respond with your epic love quotes and opinions!
And that's all I have to say today <3
*Name has been changed.
Please don't be sad or feel any type of feelings toward the situation, it is for the best for my ex-fiance and I. We were just too different for our own good.
However, that happened months ago and now I am dating someone new... Oh, and did I tell you I'm pregnant? Yeah, I can't put the two together either...
His name is Ethan*. I actually met him on the Tinder app, (after telling myself I would never use a dating app or website!) and it's almost like he's too good to be true!
Let's start from the beginning-
I was feeling lonely and ready to move on when I joined Tinder. I was pregnant. I was overwhelmed by a sense of self pity. I know. Ridiculous. You don't have to tell me twice! And it just seemed like every guy I was compatible with was only looking for things I don't want to say... ok, I'll say it. They all wanted sex. Clearly I'm not embarrassed by sex or anything, but I don't go to a dating app to find it. Especially when I'm pregnant. So what I was doing is just telling guys flat out- I'm three months pregnant. And most of them were scared away. Others were creepy and had fetishes. Then Ethan appeared....... He didn't want sex. He didn't care I was pregnant. He just wanted to get to know me...
That was really new and exciting! I haven't dated in almost four years! I was excited and then overcome with this fear... What if he is just really good at playing cool? I have major trust issues with men and how was I just going to let this guy in and not put up every single wall I could muster up?
Well, we went to coffee and his eyes gleamed every time he laughed and his smile got wider and brighter with every fumbly thing he said. I could tell he was just as nervous as me! That made me relax a LOT. We actually had our second date that night! It was so sweet. But I had no idea how to act and to be honest, he wasn't my type. He was very muscular, shorter (but taller than me), light haired, fair skinned............... Ok, I know I was being picky. But I'm a girl and its what we do. Every time he looked at me I could feel this warmth. I felt pretty. I really felt wonderful. All I did was smile. But stupid Angie with all of her walls kept being skeptical. Maybe it was all a front?
But I saw him again... and again... and again... until I was sure that all of the compliments (which I have no idea how to take) and all of the wonderful things he says were true.
And now I'm at this line. You see, I categorize relationships with men in this ladder type form where there are lines you cross. Ethan never was in the friend zone, so we skipped that line. Then we went to the dating zone, and then the steady zone... and now I feel like I'm at this new zone. I always thought I knew what love was... but now I'm not sure.
I'm scared. And I'm worried that I'll be rejected. Every time I see him I feel like I can do anything. He challenges me and questions my decisions and my opinions. Things I need, but I never told him I wanted. How does he get me when I haven't even told him about myself? We're so much alike yet so completely different. And I think that's what makes me want to make him happier than he makes me. He is genuine and cares about my feelings and what is going on in my life.
Don't get me wrong, he's got his ways of making me crazy, but I'm sure I do the same for him :)
I just want to know what this is that I'm feeling. He's made me feel a way that I've never felt before. That's sad considering I was engaged... but back to the happy! How do I know!?
Now all we need to do is figure out how we're going to tell his mom I'm pregnant... and it's not even his...! But that's for another blog!
Feel free to respond with your epic love quotes and opinions!
And that's all I have to say today <3
*Name has been changed.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
For all you ladies with sensitive skin!
Hey guys! I know it's been a REALLY long time since I've blogged, but hey, a girl gets busy sometimes!
So, Influenster and Gillette recently sent me the new Gillette Venus Sensitive Razor and let me tell you, I was skeptical... I usually have nothing but little red bumps and itching after shaving my legs. HOWEVER, this time, I didn't! I was so excited! It's really hard to go a day without itching and then moisturizing so intensely after shaving, but I didn't feel like I had to do that! My skin was smooth, touchable, and not irritated at all!
I think I may have found my new soulmate! Thanks Influenster and Gillette!!!
And that's all I have to say today <3
So, Influenster and Gillette recently sent me the new Gillette Venus Sensitive Razor and let me tell you, I was skeptical... I usually have nothing but little red bumps and itching after shaving my legs. HOWEVER, this time, I didn't! I was so excited! It's really hard to go a day without itching and then moisturizing so intensely after shaving, but I didn't feel like I had to do that! My skin was smooth, touchable, and not irritated at all!
I think I may have found my new soulmate! Thanks Influenster and Gillette!!!
And that's all I have to say today <3
Friday, September 13, 2013
Some weird happenings around WI lately... Or maybe just my neck of the woods?
So, I haven't posted in a long while. I've been quite busy!!!
First, my fiance and I had a little out and broke up to find our ways back to each other. That was a long couple of months. Then, I realized that my apartment is too small to do 30 DS in and I joined a gym. And now, I am blogging at Barns & Noble because I am supposed to be meeting a partner for a group project... and she's not here! Hopefully she will be soon.
While I wasn't blogging, I made some important life goals for myself.
1. Get married. Brandon loves me no matter how I am and where I am in my life. I AM good enough. Nothing will change that.
2. Lose the 35 lbs that I have gained since high school. Not that I don't like my body! I love the curves these extra lbs have given me, but I can tell that my body doesn't appreciate the extra weight. My frame isn't made to hold this much.
3. Raise my GPA to a 3.0. I took a leadership class this summer, and I ended up becoming more confused about my life than what I already was. However, I was able to network and know that I have so many mentors and people in my life that are willing to take the good with the bad. So, I have currently got a 2.9!! WHooop WHoop! So, my favorite professor Ed encouraged me to reset my goal to achieving a 3.5. That would entitle me to graduate with honors and I would be the second person EVER in my family to graduate from college with honors, and the first person in my family to graduate from college with TWO degrees. What a landmark. I feel that I need to set the bar high. Not only for myself, but also for my future children. I didn't really have any expectations except for the ones that my step-mother set for me. So achieving them will be the ultimate payoff.
4. Personally grow the WCTC DECA chapter by 15%. This is what I am goaled at currently. And, if everyone who signed up at our first meeting continues to be active with the club, I am positive that I am nearly half way there already! SO EXCITED!
If you have never set a goal and completed it, you may not know the feeling, but completing a goal, or exceeding it is the greatest feeling ever!
One day I will pay it forward. I can only hope that I will be able to prove to my professors, who have invested so much time into mentoring, and supporting not only me but my fellow peers, that I was worth it.
On a less academic note, I was promoted to a Sales Leader at a larger store! That was one of my dreams and is keeping me on track with my career goals :) Why am I telling you this, you may ask? Because it comes with perks, (like a raise), and downfalls. Said downfalls include, later nights, stressful quotas, and weird men hitting on you and asking you out... You like how I slid that one in there? I knew you would!
Yesterday, I opened the store and was greeting and selling to customers when a man, not an old man, but older than me, and straight up asked me on a date. OF COURSE it was a day when I didn't wear my engagement ring to work.
Then, today, I'm walking through the mall and a guy goes, "Hey I like you're jeans", and I politely thank him. Then he goes, "How can I get in those?" Um... EXCUSE ME?! No.
And that's all I have to say today <3
First, my fiance and I had a little out and broke up to find our ways back to each other. That was a long couple of months. Then, I realized that my apartment is too small to do 30 DS in and I joined a gym. And now, I am blogging at Barns & Noble because I am supposed to be meeting a partner for a group project... and she's not here! Hopefully she will be soon.
While I wasn't blogging, I made some important life goals for myself.
1. Get married. Brandon loves me no matter how I am and where I am in my life. I AM good enough. Nothing will change that.
2. Lose the 35 lbs that I have gained since high school. Not that I don't like my body! I love the curves these extra lbs have given me, but I can tell that my body doesn't appreciate the extra weight. My frame isn't made to hold this much.
3. Raise my GPA to a 3.0. I took a leadership class this summer, and I ended up becoming more confused about my life than what I already was. However, I was able to network and know that I have so many mentors and people in my life that are willing to take the good with the bad. So, I have currently got a 2.9!! WHooop WHoop! So, my favorite professor Ed encouraged me to reset my goal to achieving a 3.5. That would entitle me to graduate with honors and I would be the second person EVER in my family to graduate from college with honors, and the first person in my family to graduate from college with TWO degrees. What a landmark. I feel that I need to set the bar high. Not only for myself, but also for my future children. I didn't really have any expectations except for the ones that my step-mother set for me. So achieving them will be the ultimate payoff.
4. Personally grow the WCTC DECA chapter by 15%. This is what I am goaled at currently. And, if everyone who signed up at our first meeting continues to be active with the club, I am positive that I am nearly half way there already! SO EXCITED!
If you have never set a goal and completed it, you may not know the feeling, but completing a goal, or exceeding it is the greatest feeling ever!
One day I will pay it forward. I can only hope that I will be able to prove to my professors, who have invested so much time into mentoring, and supporting not only me but my fellow peers, that I was worth it.
On a less academic note, I was promoted to a Sales Leader at a larger store! That was one of my dreams and is keeping me on track with my career goals :) Why am I telling you this, you may ask? Because it comes with perks, (like a raise), and downfalls. Said downfalls include, later nights, stressful quotas, and weird men hitting on you and asking you out... You like how I slid that one in there? I knew you would!
Yesterday, I opened the store and was greeting and selling to customers when a man, not an old man, but older than me, and straight up asked me on a date. OF COURSE it was a day when I didn't wear my engagement ring to work.
Then, today, I'm walking through the mall and a guy goes, "Hey I like you're jeans", and I politely thank him. Then he goes, "How can I get in those?" Um... EXCUSE ME?! No.
And that's all I have to say today <3
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
There must be something in the water...
What is it lately? It seems like whatever I want goes up in flames? I want to hang out with someone, NOPE! You've gotta work, or you're sick. I want to finally be on top of my bills and not broke at the end of the month, NOPE! You're actually be negative at the EOM. I want to be happy, NOPE! Screw you Angie!
I am usually just a very positive person. EXTREMELY positive, to the point where people ask me how the heck I'm so positive. But, lately I just want to shoot anyone who's being positive in the face. I'm ready to give up on being happy and start making other people happy. I'd be one of those people who thrives on other people's happiness.
It's so bothersome that I can't sleep. I don't want to eat. And all I want to do is scream at the top of my lungs that I hate everyone.
HOWEVER, I could have it worse. I know I could. But can I just for once be happy? Its not even really about the money, or the inability to hang out with friends. It is the sheer fact that it seems like everyone I know wants me to be upset. It seems like everyone just wants me to suffer and struggle.
Also, can I get a weekend off without asking for one? Like seriously? Or can someone I know at my job, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE(!!!!) stop being so selfish? I work my tail off too! I deserve to have my scheduled ROTATION off! Its company policy, thank you.
And that's all I have to say today <3
PS- I know things will get better :) I just needed to vent.
I am usually just a very positive person. EXTREMELY positive, to the point where people ask me how the heck I'm so positive. But, lately I just want to shoot anyone who's being positive in the face. I'm ready to give up on being happy and start making other people happy. I'd be one of those people who thrives on other people's happiness.
It's so bothersome that I can't sleep. I don't want to eat. And all I want to do is scream at the top of my lungs that I hate everyone.
HOWEVER, I could have it worse. I know I could. But can I just for once be happy? Its not even really about the money, or the inability to hang out with friends. It is the sheer fact that it seems like everyone I know wants me to be upset. It seems like everyone just wants me to suffer and struggle.
Also, can I get a weekend off without asking for one? Like seriously? Or can someone I know at my job, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE(!!!!) stop being so selfish? I work my tail off too! I deserve to have my scheduled ROTATION off! Its company policy, thank you.
And that's all I have to say today <3
PS- I know things will get better :) I just needed to vent.
Monday, June 24, 2013
Guys! I just got my Sunkissed VoxBox!
Can I please just let everyone know that I am totally and completely spoiled by Influenster?
Look at these goodies!!! The products are as follows:
1 pair of Dr. Scholl's for Her High Heel Insoles: It says in the description of these little babies that they are proven to improve the way I feel in heels... Um. Yes!!! Thank the good Lord for finally allowing someone to make these! Can't wait to try them!
1 bottle of SinfulShine with Gel Tech technology in Alfresco: Super cute color and the shine is UNBELIEVABLE! I only did one nail... I can't wait to do a complete mani with this stuff!
1 tube of Olay Fresh Effects BB Cream Skin Perfecting Tinted Moisturizer with SPF 15 in Light/Medium: Hell yea! This is a thick tinted SPF BB Cream that really gives some good coverage! It has a slight scent though... so I'm leery about that. I never use anything on my face that has fragrance...
1 Set of Goody Ouchless Ribbon Elastics: I have wanted to try these for SO long! I have fine hair, but LOTS of it and so with some of the typical elastics my hair will get wrapped around the band and tear out... OUCH! I'm hoping these guys keep my hair from breaking and pulling too much!
For all of my new readers, I received all of these products from Influenster.com for testing purposes. I have received these products complimentary and will review them on behalf of Influenster.com. Go join Influenster and become an Influencer!!! Totally worth it!
On that note, I got a sweet little quote in my VoxBox that makes me feel like summer is really here even though it's been raining pretty hard here in WI--
"Palm trees, ocean air, sunkissed hair: the endless summer, take me there." - Unknown
Thanks again Influenster, Goody, SinfulShine, Olay, and Dr. Scholl's!
And that's all I have to say today <3
Friday, May 24, 2013
I went MIA l for a while... Sorry about that!
First, I want to apologize because I have been SO busy that I haven't blogged in a LONG while. So I'm sorry! I sincerely feel bad, but I got sick, went to California for DECA Nationals, then came back and was still sick, then I had finals which ate up my life for about two weeks, and just recently I had a tooth pulled which seriously, is the pits. Aside from that, I obviously stopped my 30 Day Shred... I feel like a huge lump and am planning on starting it over as soon as my mouth is completely healed.
Dentist said that my mouth will be ready to eat steak and chips in about two weeks. Thank god because this whole liquid and mushy food diet is NOT my kinda thing... I hate jello... I hate pudding... so that pretty much narrows it down to soup with nothing but veggies and noodles in it, noodles with sauce but no meat, ice cream (which I really don't mind :D), and mashed potatoes. What a gross texture combo. No lie, I am so glad that I have all of my teeth and can eat regular food just as soon as my mouth is healed.
On a less rant-ish note, I have become a DECA officer :) I'm super happy about that! For those of you who do not know what DECA is, it is a collegiate business club that offers life skills, career networking opportunities, and career development skills. We as DECA members, have the opportunity to compete in business like scenarios that simulate what may happen in the workplace. This club is exhilarating and challenging which made me campaign for the opportunity as Vice President of Recruitment. SO EXCITED! I wish everyone who reads this could be part of our chapter!!!
Next little blurb, this last semester of school went awesome! Upped my GPA for the semester which was my goal. However, it only raised my overall GPA by .01... which doesn't make the tiniest bit of sense... Oh well, that just means that I need to work that much harder next semester! I registered for classes :) I had to be full-time for insurance reasons and so I ended up taking an Introduction to Website Design class... WHA?! Who does that? This chick! Plus, it will get me an extra certificate... Which can only help me right?
Anyway, the real reason I decided to blog today- 52 Week Challenge Update... Updated! (For those of you who read my blog and know I already have a post called 52 Week Challenge Update.)
I have over $110 now in savings! It feels so awesome! This truly is the easiest way to save money! For those of you who have NO idea what I'm talking about, please read my blog post titled: 52 Week Challenge ....Confusion.... (from February) and also my second post about the 52 Week Challenge titled: 52 Week Challenge Update! (from March). Now... If only someone could make losing weight as easy this money saving challenge is... *cough cough*
And the last thing I am totally obsessed with-
Ariel Yoga... Has anyone ever tried it? There is a place nearby that is now offering it! I would really LOVE to try it! If anyone has any tips on this awesome sounding yoga sport, please let me know! Leave me comments!!! I want to hear what you think!
And that's all I have to say today <3
Dentist said that my mouth will be ready to eat steak and chips in about two weeks. Thank god because this whole liquid and mushy food diet is NOT my kinda thing... I hate jello... I hate pudding... so that pretty much narrows it down to soup with nothing but veggies and noodles in it, noodles with sauce but no meat, ice cream (which I really don't mind :D), and mashed potatoes. What a gross texture combo. No lie, I am so glad that I have all of my teeth and can eat regular food just as soon as my mouth is healed.
On a less rant-ish note, I have become a DECA officer :) I'm super happy about that! For those of you who do not know what DECA is, it is a collegiate business club that offers life skills, career networking opportunities, and career development skills. We as DECA members, have the opportunity to compete in business like scenarios that simulate what may happen in the workplace. This club is exhilarating and challenging which made me campaign for the opportunity as Vice President of Recruitment. SO EXCITED! I wish everyone who reads this could be part of our chapter!!!
Next little blurb, this last semester of school went awesome! Upped my GPA for the semester which was my goal. However, it only raised my overall GPA by .01... which doesn't make the tiniest bit of sense... Oh well, that just means that I need to work that much harder next semester! I registered for classes :) I had to be full-time for insurance reasons and so I ended up taking an Introduction to Website Design class... WHA?! Who does that? This chick! Plus, it will get me an extra certificate... Which can only help me right?
Anyway, the real reason I decided to blog today- 52 Week Challenge Update... Updated! (For those of you who read my blog and know I already have a post called 52 Week Challenge Update.)
I have over $110 now in savings! It feels so awesome! This truly is the easiest way to save money! For those of you who have NO idea what I'm talking about, please read my blog post titled: 52 Week Challenge ....Confusion.... (from February) and also my second post about the 52 Week Challenge titled: 52 Week Challenge Update! (from March). Now... If only someone could make losing weight as easy this money saving challenge is... *cough cough*
And the last thing I am totally obsessed with-
Ariel Yoga... Has anyone ever tried it? There is a place nearby that is now offering it! I would really LOVE to try it! If anyone has any tips on this awesome sounding yoga sport, please let me know! Leave me comments!!! I want to hear what you think!
And that's all I have to say today <3
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